New Chapter, part 1.

Due to some reasons major changes in my life, I have decide to turn a page and start a new chapter.
This coming year, is going to be my year.

When I tell people that I am now single, their first reaction is them feeling sorry me. But dude, it's fine. It has to be. Feeling sorry or sad is not going to help. To be honest, I am heartbroken. But it's part of the whole process. And life goes on.


I  have heard from various sources that you cannot expect someone to take care of your own happiness (note, I do believe that there are people, who do care about your happiness, but you cannot hand over the whole responsibility to someone else). And nothing is black or white, nothing is easy in these things. Its not like you are in love,everything feels awesome vs. no love, feeling nothing at all. No, there are shades of grey, which make it all the more difficult.

There is no use actually it explaining the why's and how's. I know, and thats the main thing.

Right now, I am just going to focus on what I want to do. This is my time. My year.

Oh, I do not feel 100% good about this. I feel totally empty, this could somewhat compare to being unable to feel anything. Instead of feeling bad, sorry and crying, I am just blocking all the feelings I have and trying not think about them anymore. Whats done is done, but it does hit you back in the face from time to time. Of course, it takes some adjusting.

My mood keeps going up and down, but hey - life goes on. The weather is amazing, summer holidays are about the begin and I have awesome friends around me. It's gonna be just fine... :-)

Best weather possible to blog outside!